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Easter Sunday
Easter Sunday, and the skies are gray
Nothing happens
A walk is made
A friendship lost
Forever in the rain
A walk is made
A human is ill
There's no room for joy
The time is 7:30 PM, Pacific Eastern. The clouds make the sky look bright, as if summer was just around the corner. One might have even thought so if it wasn't for the fact that there were clouds and the ground was wet and it smelled like Earth. One would have thought so if the house yard wasn't strewn with confetti and fake grass from the little kids playing with their Easter baskets. One would have thought so if the air was a little bit heavier.
One might have thought so if only one's uncle wasn't being taken to the hospital. One might have thought so if one's uncle wasn't writhing in pain merely getting into the passenger seat of the black 2007 Honda Accord. One might have thought so if one didn't know that one's uncle was living on borrowed time.
One looks up into the sky wondering when one's life changed, when one's motive
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And my life rudely shakes me into existence
I'm bombarded by the memories of last night
The things I wanted
The things I did
No longer am I running free of fixing a mess
No longer am I happy in my own world
But I am here, awake
My eyes burn
I feel dirty
My breath, my mouth, stale and disgusting
I get up and am greeted by my parents
And all of a sudden everything that was ever wrong
All the bad feelings I had towards anything
my body, my self, anyone else, my room
Is gone in a flash
I don't brush my teeth right away
I never do
And I make my way towards little loves
Young and old
I go outside to get them their food
And I pass our lime tree
MY lime tree
And finally, after months, they're growing back
My tiny babies I love so much are finally coming back to me
And I think
"Maybe my mornings aren't so bad after all"
And I greet it with open arms
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And my world finally tells me goodnight
Falling into the lovely memories that is my bed
I bury my face into my pillow before saying my sweet goodnight
(To my lover, far away)
The smell of life fills my nostrils and already I am filling my head with faces
Of those I love and miss dearly
And in the moments between me being alive
And entering my other world
I am happier than I've ever been
Happier than before
Happier than now
Happier than I ever will be
I breathe my last breath and finally
After the moments I've cherished are gone
The moments of my natural high, blissfully leaving my conscious
I am home
And my world finally tells me
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How to Fly
Go outside
Go on your roof
Close your eyes
Feel the breeze, hot or cold
Breathe in
Open your soul
Spread your arms and jump
Jump higher than you ever have before
And further, too.
Breathe out and feel the wind in your face as you glide over your home. The homes of the people you love. The homes of the  people you know. The empty lanes of the boulevards long forgotten. See all you can; this does not last forever.
What's that? In the background? It is your house, miles away. You do not wish to go to your house, you want to go home. But you know you must. You fly over your home one more time with pleading eyes and feel a strong longing to go in and hug the ones you love most dearly, but you know you cannot stop.
You reach your house
You land and sit down on your roof
The breeze has left
You breathe in and out one more time
You lower your arms
And you open your eyes.
This is how you fly.
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Hello, my name is Doormat
United States
Current Residence: Fresnooooo
deviantWEAR sizing preference: Medium
Favourite genre of music: I like more or less of everything. Does that make sense?
MP3 player of choice: One that works
Wallpaper of choice: Whatever suits my fancy
Favourite cartoon character: It's either Olive Oyl or Little Lulu. Or Tack.
Personal Quote: "What."
As you can see... I don't log on too much anymore... I feel I have nothing to really draw or write about.
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madstalfos Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2014
Thanks for the watch :)
WickedWriter Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the Fav

You Rock :headbang:
Schizophrenic-i-am Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2010
No prob. I love math
Exillior Featured By Owner May 16, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the :+fav: on my journal skin Woody Green Stripes! :love:
Schizophrenic-i-am Featured By Owner May 23, 2010
No problem. It looked super cool! I just don't know how to use it... I got off of deviatnART for a long time and when I came back on, WHAM! Everything was different.
Exillior Featured By Owner May 24, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm afraid you will need a subscription to be able to use journalskins. >.< I'm sorry about that. ^^'
Arwen-l-elfe Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you so much for the devwatch! :hug:
Schizophrenic-i-am Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2009
No problem

AirSakura Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanx 4 the fav! ^^
Ethren Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
u have to hav a subscription to make polls, Cynthia
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